Kayo ba?

As i'm typing this everything tells me that i'm about to make a wrong decision, as if i haven't made enough mistakes in my life. haha! But then again, mistakes are just part of life right? After reading all your stories the more pressured I got to write and share my own story. Well, I really didn't expect that anyone would even reply to that message. Thanks to jorge for taking the first leap. Now I really have to write my story.

Okay, so what should i write about? Something interesting i guess...or i might just bore the hell out of you guys. Like the meeting i went to a few hours back. I swear i wanted to scream just for kicks! hehehe!

Going back to my story...

I'm writing about the question I always get from you guys way back college. There were some who were brave enough to ask me face to face while some would just stick to making face. "Kayo ba?" sounds familiar right? After x number of years, here i am attempting to answer your question as truthfully as i can. That way when we bump into each other in the future I wouldn't get that question again. I swear I get asked that question a lot! I lost count already.Well, i must admit it's a great ice breaker for those people i barely spoke a word to in college. hehe. But really it's not because I don't want to give a starightforward answer...it's just sometimes there's no straightforward answer specially when dealing with feelings and all that mushy stuff we're so crazy about.

"Kayo ba?" The answer to that question actually depends on the time the question is asked. If you're one of those people who asked me sometime between 1995-1998...well, the answer is a big fat NO.What? You waited 8-11 years just to get a negative? Don't fret...we were just dating that time...and things were a bit complicated to say the least. If you asked sometime 1999 - 2002, the answer is YES. We're very much together during those times. Then for some weird reason we broke up. Break ups make you realize that you dont own anything. It has taught me that nothing really belongs to me but I got through with a little help from friends.

I don't know about you guys but I'm a believer of second chances so when love came knocking on my door again sometime 2003, i decided to give it another try. With the hope that this time things will be different. And I wasn't disappointed. Things were different. For a time I thought we were doing really well. Fast forward to last quarter of 2005, for unknown reasons it ended. Even until now I don't know what happened and why it ended. Again I'm reminded that nothing really belongs to me. Anyone who has lost something would understand me. But I'm not mad or anything, somehow all these has taught me to live my life as if it were my first or last day. Atleast now, when somebody asks you "kayo ba?"...you can replyback "It's Complicated"... thanks to friendster for making it so much easier! It's complicated is way so much better than an awkward silence. hehe.

So ask me again that question. "Kayo ba?" It depends who you're referring to. All I can say is whoever this person is...atleast I've gained one very happy day in my life. Considering how things are around us, one happy day is almost a dream.