I can't believe that it has been a year since I last saw my Dad. Time seems to just pass by so fast. I don't think I'll get over the loneliness that I feel everytime I think of my Dad. Things are just different without him. There's this unexplainable emptiness that I feel when I'm reminded of him. I regret not being able to spend more time with him while he was still alive. I feel that I don't have enough memories to share about my Dad. I'm worried I might forget.
I miss him. We all miss him.
I hope and pray he's in a better place now.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Monday, June 30, 2008
When you least expect it
Looking back I would never be able to guess that it was going to happen on June 28, 2008.
Everything just fell into place, there was no hint or clue to even prepare me to what was going to happen. I just remember having a great lunch with my bf at sonya's garden, we even bought some chocolate cake for Iris before proceeding to Bag of beans for some cinnamon raisins bread.
Yum! My bf decided to try a different route going to anilao. We took talisay road for the first time. The views were fantastic...we had to stop over to take some pics. hehehe!
We arrived at Acacia Resort a few minutes past 7 in the evening. I hurriedly carried all my things excited to join the birthday party. Before going down to the dining area, my bf asked if he could use the restroom for a few minutes. I was about to carry all my stuff but was asked to leave them behind and proceed to the dining area.
Going down the stairs, i was really happy and excited to see the rose petals and candles intricately placed by the steps...it was really pretty! I was impressed with their preparations for the party. The path going to the dining area was lighted with candles and with scattered rose petals. I still had no clue...when i reached the dining area i noticed all the lights were out except for the candles...and there it was - the table for two.
Beautifully set up with gorgeous china, complete with wine glasses, napkin, the works! That was when I realized this is not a birthday party...it was a dinner for two people. My bf's cousins were no were to be found. All i can see were shadows of people peeking over the kitchen counter. I also noticed a few cameras clicking away. hahaha. I was really nervous...I wanted to back out. I couldn't help but laugh to mask my nervousness.
My brain wasn't functioning well...I felt funny that they've set up a dinner for us. My bf reminded me that he did promised to surprise me one of these days. This was his surprise. He asked me to take a seat...i remember still laughing at this point...i couldn't believe what was happening. He then handed me a 6x6 box and asked me to open it. I lifted the lid and peeked...it was full of letters...I felt tears rolling down my cheeks. I knew they were mine...in that box were my letters that I have written for him since we were in college.
But why? He reached inside the box and gave me a letter...a letter he had written for me. While i was reading it he left to get something. I could not control my tears
Everything just fell into place, there was no hint or clue to even prepare me to what was going to happen. I just remember having a great lunch with my bf at sonya's garden, we even bought some chocolate cake for Iris before proceeding to Bag of beans for some cinnamon raisins bread.
Yum! My bf decided to try a different route going to anilao. We took talisay road for the first time. The views were fantastic...we had to stop over to take some pics. hehehe!
We arrived at Acacia Resort a few minutes past 7 in the evening. I hurriedly carried all my things excited to join the birthday party. Before going down to the dining area, my bf asked if he could use the restroom for a few minutes. I was about to carry all my stuff but was asked to leave them behind and proceed to the dining area.
Going down the stairs, i was really happy and excited to see the rose petals and candles intricately placed by the steps...it was really pretty! I was impressed with their preparations for the party. The path going to the dining area was lighted with candles and with scattered rose petals. I still had no clue...when i reached the dining area i noticed all the lights were out except for the candles...and there it was - the table for two.
Beautifully set up with gorgeous china, complete with wine glasses, napkin, the works! That was when I realized this is not a birthday party...it was a dinner for two people. My bf's cousins were no were to be found. All i can see were shadows of people peeking over the kitchen counter. I also noticed a few cameras clicking away. hahaha. I was really nervous...I wanted to back out. I couldn't help but laugh to mask my nervousness.
My brain wasn't functioning well...I felt funny that they've set up a dinner for us. My bf reminded me that he did promised to surprise me one of these days. This was his surprise. He asked me to take a seat...i remember still laughing at this point...i couldn't believe what was happening. He then handed me a 6x6 box and asked me to open it. I lifted the lid and peeked...it was full of letters...I felt tears rolling down my cheeks. I knew they were mine...in that box were my letters that I have written for him since we were in college.
But why? He reached inside the box and gave me a letter...a letter he had written for me. While i was reading it he left to get something. I could not control my tears
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
What I've been missing these days...
Only four months had passed and yet there has been so many changes...here are some of the things and people that I've been missing:
1) My Dad - things are quite not right without him. Life will never be the same without him. I miss him every day.
2) Diving! - My last dive was last September...I need to dive again!!!
3) Photography - I don't have the time to experiment with my camera. (H- i promise to use it more often!)
4) Work Life Balance - I can't count how much time I spend thinking about work...doing work...talking on the phone for work, entertaining clients...I need to get back on track and manage my time!
5) Our old condo unit - now that we rented out our condo unit because of a deal that was so hard to refuse...I miss hanging out in our old condo unit.
6) Out of town trips - Ever since my dumaguete trip last september...I have not had the time to go out of town to recharge. Life is unfair!!!
7) Hanging out with the Kyombs - I miss my girlfriends!
8) Taking time off from work - my time is spent thinking about work...work...and more work!
9) Going to the mall - My shopping time is usually spent inside Off Price...that's maximum of 30-45minutes. I can't remember the last time i went shopping inside a mall.
10) I miss Charcoal!
1) My Dad - things are quite not right without him. Life will never be the same without him. I miss him every day.
2) Diving! - My last dive was last September...I need to dive again!!!
3) Photography - I don't have the time to experiment with my camera. (H- i promise to use it more often!)
4) Work Life Balance - I can't count how much time I spend thinking about work...doing work...talking on the phone for work, entertaining clients...I need to get back on track and manage my time!
5) Our old condo unit - now that we rented out our condo unit because of a deal that was so hard to refuse...I miss hanging out in our old condo unit.
6) Out of town trips - Ever since my dumaguete trip last september...I have not had the time to go out of town to recharge. Life is unfair!!!
7) Hanging out with the Kyombs - I miss my girlfriends!
8) Taking time off from work - my time is spent thinking about work...work...and more work!
9) Going to the mall - My shopping time is usually spent inside Off Price...that's maximum of 30-45minutes. I can't remember the last time i went shopping inside a mall.
10) I miss Charcoal!
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